Well, hmm.

April 15, 2010

So the last few weeks have been fairly disillusioning.  Bellavista’s now out of the picture, and I heave a long sigh of relief at that departure.  Let’s just say that there’s no time to be unhappy, and that place was swinging towards deep depression.  So I left.  Simple as that.

Beginning again.  Because I mean come on, it can’t be that easy to figure out what you want to do for the REST OF YOUR LIFE.  There’s got to be some room for fuck ups and bad decisions.  And you know, I don’t care if it looks bad, or if my parents worry about me making rent, or not having health insurance.  I don’t care if it takes me years to finally figure out how to do the things I can really stand doing for that long, because if it’s making me doubt myself, or forget what it means to care about what I’m doing, or lose even a thimble of the sparsely rationed passion that I have, than it’s not worth it.  It was supposed to be a temp job anyway, that I allowed myself to be sold into.  I mean, the man’s good at selling an idea, I’ll give him that much.

I like writing at night.  Makes me feel like there’s noone to judge me.

Anyhow, on to bigger and better things. Like being inspired by/doing the things that I’m not… yet.

For example, and in a perfect world, I would like this to go in my room, over my mantle, and I would like to have lots of pottery below it, preferably mine, but I’d have to make some first, and some of them will have little tea lights inside, and great big ivory candles too, and everything would flicker and glow.

In addition to interior decorating, COOKING is perhaps my newest challenge, and I still can’t bring myself to fully invest.  I’ve been browsing perhaps far too many food and cuisine blogs, but indeed the most inspiration comes from the art in it.

Above:  Life style photographer Anson Smart.  To travel and take pictures of beautiful things, what a life it would be.

Now, I know there’s a crafter in me somewhere because when I see things like this (below) I think of the enormous bag of t-shirts I have with varying levels of sentimental significance that nevertheless tell the story of my life better than I, and well she gets sort of pushy. Only, I’ve never used a sewing machine before.

And then of course after all of this productivity,  I’d make an impeccably delish summer cocktail chock full of various fruits…and mint… and perhaps basil….

(I could seriously look through the pictures on Tastespotting all day long.)

and then create my very first life list.  Don’t worry, I’ve already collected a number of other peoples’ in case I get stuck.

Design for Mankind

The Amber Show

Mighty Girl


One Response to “Well, hmm.”

  1. erin / dfm said

    yay! i hope you finish your life list (and thanks for the link!) 🙂

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